Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

A little sneak peak

I have been working or reworking this story.poem/thingy for a while now and I thought I would share a little tiny bit of what I am doing.
It is not done and what I am showing you needs some revision too ..but here is what I have so far.

We stayed up all night because the sun was strong that day. It seeped into the concrete outside, slipping through our stucco walls, and found a home in our skin, squeezing at our throats, pulling at limbs, sucking skin. It was hard to breathe. I watched you from above. Your beautiful body; laid out for me to worship across the pale turquoise tile on our kitchen floor. Your mouth opened and your breath painted patterns across the stale colored ground. I bent down to touch you, but my hands resisted. So I let you sleep a little longer while the humming heat flooded in behind my eyes. Finally you began to stir. Slick and strong you rose and came to me.

You were down to your boxers by this time. Your milky skin blended with the blinding sun, making my own shell worthless and dim by comparison. The room blurred and I stumbled down the hallway. My arms stretched back, hands procrastinating, exploring each groove along the walls. The sun began to slip but the heat lingered making every breath I took feel like mid august; stretching my lungs and pushing against my body for a way out. You trailed behind my trembling frame. I laid my body out across cotton sheets, the cheap fabric pulling against flushed skin as our bodies tangled into one. Head on chest, palm to palm, soft murmurs…morning came timidly; the light struggling to overcome the hues of night. My body cooled and I felt like I just woke up, but I know I didn’t take my eyes off you once.


I really like where it is going and hope that I can flush it out some more, so it can become what I want it to be.

Thanks for stopping by!!

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

NEW





I watched from far away

The sun she could not make it to them quick enough

The cold sweat of the night advancing

losing direction around bodies of overlapping lovers

arms to hands, hands to wrists and fingers

fingers stirring, touching , moving them all at once


Beautiful creatures, foolish, I want to stay

the mist thickened ,time slowed

I folowed the humm to the center

and it came upon me

knee to ankel, ankle to foot, toes..

Firm bodies reduced effortlessly into the ground


The sun wont stay away forever

whispers, if only living was this easy

please slow down my dear

the ground swelled and our own moon began to cry

souls became thougts, thoughts became bodies and people

all we wanted to do




Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Amor Fati

A while ago someone told me about the phrase Amor Fati, mealing love you fate. I looked it up and it is a Latin phrase from Nietzsche. It like an attitude where you look at your life and everything that happens good and bad as something good. Its about our ultimate purpose and the journey getting there. Its about acceptance of the things that happen.
He write in an article saying:
" I want to learn more and more to see as beautiful what is necessary in things; the I shall be one of those who make things beautiful. Amore fati: let that be my love henceforth! I do not want to wage war against what is ugly. I do not want to accuse; I do not even want to accuse those who accuse. Looking away shall be my only negation. And all in all and on the whole : some day I wish to be the only Yes-Sayer"
Also he writes..
" My formula for greatness in a human is Amor fati: that one wants nothing to be different, not forward, not backward, not in all eternity. No merely bear what is necessary, still less conceal it-all idealism is mendaciousness in the face of what is necessary-but love it."

Thank you for showing me this it helped me today. Life happens and we cannot stop it. Lets stop fighting anger will give us wrinkles and too much stress. This happened and regardless of the outcome neither of us want the other in pain. In this moment, right now, that is good enough. And each day I will remember this phrase and remember that my life is a thing of beauty as is every ones. Mistakes help us learn; that is beautiful. Fights help us learn ; that is beautiful. Pain helps us grown; that is beautiful. Imperfections and insecurities make us human; that is beautiful.

I have realized when you are in the middle of a problem it seems worse than it is. It sits on your heart and weighs down your limbs. Take a breath and be happy you can breath and feel that pain. This seems horrible right now, doesn't it? Back and forth blaming , yelling, so much anger. When the other doesn't mean half of what is being perceived.

We are a proud species..us humans. But right now I just wanna be me. I am hurt and it doesn't matter who or why because that just is not what its about. Blaming does not erase pain.Nothing does really. I will accept what has happened and try to accept it everyday. Amor Fati...What will happen is my destiny and I cannot control it. Isn't that what we are trying to do. Back and forth trying to convince and control the other. But lets not anymore okay... because its not possible and I have no more strength.

Amor Fati..thanks for telling me about it..now I can feel it and do it.
So remember everyone the good and bad get us where we want to be. The bad always fades away , its situational but great things like love tend to stay. So bask in that knowledge and love your fate!


Sunday, April 4, 2010

San Francisco




I was in love darling

Loved you dearly

Needed so little from me

You sat me in your lap

Holding my chin up

Don't waste you time

No just walk away

Life is easier down that path.





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Here and now

You're holding that globe in your tiny hand

Shaking it, hoping for anything

But those tiny flakes keep falling

cutting away at your fingertips

As we cry.





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It's okay I'll crawl inside your sphere

back in those hands

Rest my weary head on the Golden Gate Bridge

Leave me where you found me.





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Little girl

We both can't seem to make this work

Do you hurt like I do now?

May your Island world always snow

And each night find what was lost to you.





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Love is a bribe

You live or you Die

Just give it one more night.

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